what would i do without you?

it's the season of doing without. i've made some old resolutions and have no real reason to believe they'll hold this time around. except that i really need them to.

things i'm doing without:
1. rice=starch=not so good for me
2. talking. my kindly ear's flown south for the winter, where she will be by herself and take baths standing in a tub. besides, i talk, i've found, expecting instant relief. when really i should just talk. can't just talk. ergo, not talking.
3. eating with distractions. in front of the tv, in front of a book, in front of theonion.com. no more.

this last one is proving to be the most difficult. but i welcome difficulties at this point. the funnest part, i remember, of playing house was the making up of random rules. wipe your feet before you come in, go to bed at 8, eat what's on your plate. rules that you recognise as dumb and mysterious, hence grown-up. somehow though, rules are tougher to follow when you see the logic behind them.